Dear Future Self,

I'm currently on a remarkable journey, overcoming challenges with unwavering determination. Life has thrown various obstacles my way, but I firmly believe that each difficulty offers a chance to learn and grow. Failures and disappointments have become stepping stones in my path toward becoming a stronger, wiser individual.

Right now, I'm focused on redesigning my life, setting clear goals, and working relentlessly toward them. I know this journey won't be without its challenges, but I've discovered an inner strength that drives me forward.

My goal is to share my story of struggle to inspire others. We all have the potential to rise above adversity and chase our dreams. I'm open to learning from others' experiences, and together, we can become the best versions of ourselves.

Let's take on this journey together, facing each challenge with determination and hope, because I believe the future is full of possibilities. I stand as proof that we can overcome adversity, and together, we will achieve success.

 

 

"When I saw you, you smiled and I loved you. 
But when he came to you. My heart is broke."

When I first laid eyes on you, a warm sensation filled my heart as your smile radiated a captivating charm. In that moment, I couldn't help but feel an instant connection, and my affection for you blossomed effortlessly. Your smile, like a gentle ray of sunshine, brightened my day and ignited a spark within me.

However, as time passed, my heart sank when I noticed another person approaching you. It was as if my world turned upside down, and I felt a pang of sadness and disappointment deep within me. I watched from afar as he came into your life, and it seemed like my dreams of being with you shattered before my eyes.

It was a challenging moment for me to witness someone else capturing your attention, but I knew that I had to accept the reality of the situation. Love doesn't always work in our favor, and sometimes we have to come to terms with the fact that the person we adore may find happiness with someone else.

I took a step back and reminded myself that love is not about possessing someone or expecting them to reciprocate our feelings. It is about cherishing the moments we have, regardless of the outcome. While it's natural to feel heartbroken and vulnerable, I understood that I should appreciate the friendship we shared and the memories we created.

Life is filled with unexpected twists and turns, and love is a complex emotion that can both lift us to great heights and challenge us in profound ways. Despite the heartache, I am grateful for the opportunity to have known you and experienced the joy of your presence, even if it was fleeting.

As I reflect on our time together, I choose to embrace the beautiful memories we crafted and learn from this experience. Sometimes, unrequited love teaches us valuable lessons about ourselves and what we truly seek in a partner. It urges us to grow and explore the depths of our emotions.

I believe that everyone we encounter has a purpose in our journey, and though it might not always be apparent at first, every connection leaves an imprint on our souls. It is okay to feel vulnerable and broken-hearted, for these emotions are a testament to the depth of our capacity to love.

Life moves forward, and I know that someday, my heart will heal, and new opportunities will present themselves. Until then, I will carry the fond memories of you and the feelings you inspired, cherishing them as a reminder of the beauty and complexity of love. My heart may be bruised, but it is not defeated.

In the end, I wish you nothing but happiness and fulfillment in your life. Though we may walk separate paths, I'll forever treasure the moments we shared and the way your smile touched my soul. Love is a journey, and I will embrace its uncertainties with an open heart, ready to explore what the future holds. 

Dear, /
I know you may not realize how good I feel when I'm around you,
even if it's only just for a moment.
The feeling reminds me of what real comfort is.
The way you talk and laugh makes me know how love is working.
The way you smile can take me to another world.
Goodbye,
if indeed we are destined to love each other,
then so be it.
I love you.

- zxscidna

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I love you so much,

I always miss you,

I promise never to leave you,

I promise to always be by your side.

You are someone who means a lot to me.

That's what you said,

Before you disappear

And leave me alone.

Now I know,

The Ones Who Loves You Will Never Leave,

That is not true.

 You're standing in front of me.

But, it's only my imagination.

There's no way you can come back.

Maybe you don't want to see me again.

Even it's hard to say my name.

Dear,

You never understand how tired I am of pretending I don't know you anymore.

While in my head,

you're still whirling and shouting.

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 I don't know what's really going on right now.

Am I hurt right now?

I feel something.

Why am I crying?

I hope this is just a dream.

I need to wake up from this dream.

Then see that everything is fine.

And I feel happy again.

 Break up was our impossible word. It was even a joke back then, we often just laughed about it. We were so sure and convinced that we were going to make it until the end of time. You were my secret attic, where I put my precious books away from everyone, where I went to whenever I feel cheery or gloomy, a safe place to put all my scattered and undisclosed thoughts. Years have gone by, turned out that the joke is on us, everything changed. The impossible turns possible. The unthinkable, unimaginable finally comes to a realization. We gave up, or maybe I gave up. I'm indeed the one who was giving up first. I did try, to not change, to stay, to wait. But waiting is the hardest part. I couldn't hold on to it anymore. I couldn't keep our relationship. I'm probably the 'bad guy' in your eyes, right?

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This morning, I met my friend named Silvia. She gave me a Chocolate Cheesecake. She said she makes it just for me. I feel so happy when I heard it because she still remembers that I love Chocolate Cheesecake so much.

Silvia is my old friend. I met her when I was a member of an organization. We always together and talking about a new idea for our organization. Sometimes she is so annoying, very annoying. We evermore argue about everything, so we can never get along. But, She is very kind and friendly. We have a lot in common, like we love cooking, playing a musical instrument and others. Sometimes, we talk about our hobby. She often asks me to play a musical instrument like a guitar or a piano and sings a song together.

This morning, We talk to each other, telling about every story that we have experienced in the past. After an hour we talking to each other, I was thinking about why she is so different. She is quieter than before. She is not a talkative person again. She is more often silent and not much talking. I'm so curious about why she is like that. So, I decided to ask her a question why she's so different.

Initially, She does not tell me why. But after I ask her again, she explained anything while she cries. She told me that after her mom passes away, her Boyfriend is decided to broke up with her without telling her why. Can you imagine? What if I or you in her position? How could he like that? Is he have a hearth? I think he's just a jerk. When I hear the story, I feel like I want to angry with this jerk. If he is in front of me, I will punch him many times until he falls. I don't understand why someone can be like that. But it was the saddest story that I heard from her. I feel so sad, even right now.

After she told me all of her stories, we decided to go to another place. I took her to my favorite place. And then, I tried to cheer her up there. After an hour of cheering up. I think she is feeling better. I hope so.

Hey Silvia, If you read this, I want to tell you that you are stronger than you think. Keep your positive vibe. As a friend, I will always help you anytime you need it. Thank you for always believing in me.

Thank you for the delicious Chocolate Cheesecake, It'll be the name of you in my contacts.



Bandung, 3 February 2020

 To be continued...