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Untuk menerima, kita harus rela memberi.
Terkadang itu membutuhkan pengorbanan kehidupan, harapan dan impian lama kita.
Tapi, yakinlah apapun yang akan datang, Itu akan jauh lebih baik daripada apa yang sudah pergi.
Apapun yang kita korbankan, tidak sebanding dengan apa yang akan kita dapatkan kelak.
Nikmatilah prosesnya, dan percayalah kita akan tersenyum kembali.
Kita akan bangkit, dan menjadi orang yang lebih baik.
Kita akan bangkit, dan menjadi orang yang lebih baik.
Mendapatkan apa yang kita impikan, di kehidupan yang lebih baik.
- Bandung 7 Juli 2020
- Bandung 7 Juli 2020
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Seringkali, ketika aku terluka atau sedang menghadapi situasi sulit, aku merasa seperti tersesat dalam pikiranku sendiri. Aku cenderung berbicara sendiri dalam keheningan, sambil bertanya-tanya mengapa selalu harus merasakan penderitaan. Kesendirian membuat semuanya terasa semakin sulit untuk aku atasi.
Dalam momen-momen seperti itu, rasanya seperti aku tengah terjebak dalam labirin dan nggak tahu harus ke mana. Sungguh sulit untuk menemukan jalan keluar, dan yang sering aku temui hanyalah jalan buntu. Tiap kali aku menemui jalan buntu, aku kadang ingin menyerah dan berhenti berusaha mencari jalan keluar.
Tapi, di tengah-tengah semua itu, terkadang aku melihat cahaya kecil yang muncul sporadis, seolah-olah memberi petunjuk tentang jalan keluar. Walaupun kadang susah dilihat dengan jelas, tapi cahaya itulah yang memberikan semangat. Aku jadi merasa nggak sendirian. Setidaknya, ada sesuatu yang bisa memberikan sedikit penerangan saat aku berusaha mencari jalan keluar.
Cahaya itu selalu semakin terang saat aku mulai percaya bahwa dia akan selalu menemani dan membantu aku keluar dari labirin ini. Cahaya itulah yang berhasil membuat aku menyadari banyak hal, sampai akhirnya aku berhasil keluar dari labirin tersebut.
Aku yakin bahwa aku bisa melewati semua ini, dengan atau tanpa dukungan dari orang lain. Mungkin terdengar sedikit egois, tapi aku sadar bahwa dukungan dari sekitar, seperti kilauan cahaya itu, bisa membuat perjalanan ini menjadi lebih mudah. Mereka adalah yang selalu ada, membantu aku keluar dari setiap kesulitan dan penderitaan dalam hidup ini.
Setiap pengalaman yang aku alami, semuanya membantu aku menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik. Aku menyadari bahwa tanpa lukanya, peristiwa sulit, atau rasa sakit yang aku alami, aku nggak akan pernah bisa tumbuh dan berkembang.
Terima kasih karena telah membantu aku bangkit dan tersenyum lagi.
Hai Bella Zharfan Aulia, Happy Birthday!!!,
Selamat ulang tahun sahabatku tercintahh, gak terasa sekarang kamu sudah menua ya. Banyak cerita-cerita sudah kita lewati. Banyak pelajaran dari ceritamu juga yang membuatmu sekarang jadi orang yang lebih baik lagi. Semoga terus berusaha menjadi orang yang lebih baik lagi Bel.
Aku udah cukup lama kenal kamu, banyak hal yang sudah berubah dari dulu sampai sekarang. Sekarang kita jauh lebih deket lagi dari pada dulu, tapi akhir-akhir ini karna Corona kita jadi agak jarang ketemu lagi ya Bel padahal dulu hampir setiap minggu ya kita Molo. Semoga semua ini cepat selesai, soalnya banyak hal yang harus aku ceritain ke kamu lagi Bel.
Tetep jaga kesahatanmu Bel, jangan terlalu banyak mikirin Doi ya hahaha. Kesahatanmu sekarang lebih penting. Semangat juga buat Diet-nya, semoga Diet-nya berhasil dan mendapatkan hasil yang terbaik. Semoga semua apa yang kamu inginkan tercapai, doa-doamu selama ini terkabul dan apa yang kamu harapkan menjadi kenyataan.
Aku udah cukup lama kenal kamu, banyak hal yang sudah berubah dari dulu sampai sekarang. Sekarang kita jauh lebih deket lagi dari pada dulu, tapi akhir-akhir ini karna Corona kita jadi agak jarang ketemu lagi ya Bel padahal dulu hampir setiap minggu ya kita Molo. Semoga semua ini cepat selesai, soalnya banyak hal yang harus aku ceritain ke kamu lagi Bel.
Tetep jaga kesahatanmu Bel, jangan terlalu banyak mikirin Doi ya hahaha. Kesahatanmu sekarang lebih penting. Semangat juga buat Diet-nya, semoga Diet-nya berhasil dan mendapatkan hasil yang terbaik. Semoga semua apa yang kamu inginkan tercapai, doa-doamu selama ini terkabul dan apa yang kamu harapkan menjadi kenyataan.
Buat kadonya, nyusul ya Bel! setelah Corona dan kita bisa pergi cari kadonya bareng kayak rencana kita waktu itu hahaha. Pokoknya buat itu aku udah siapin, tinggal kapan kita mau pergi cari kadonya. Haha.
My wish for you is that you continue to love life and never stop dreaming. May beauty and happiness surround you, not only on your special day, but always. Semoga tetap jadi sahabatku yang paling bisa diandalkan ya Bel!. Terima kasih telah menjadi seseorang yang mau menerimaku apa adanya. Selamat ulang tahun!!
Sedikit Gallery untuk mengingatkan moment-moment dulu..
Sedikit Gallery untuk mengingatkan moment-moment dulu..
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| Pas member masing lengkap |
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| Keep smile meskipun galau wkwk |
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| Waktu Ngalay bareng di molo |
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| Ayok kita camping lagi! |
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| Awal mula main bareng disini ni |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELLA !!!!
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| Bonus terakhir |
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The light has been turned off.
The world is destroyed.
The leaves fall into the ground.
But that's not Autumn leaves.
I see the destruction.
I see it from the outside.
I feel it from the inside.
Some people said it'll be OK and everything's gonna be alright.
Some others said it's just the beginning.
And the rest, they don't care.
How long can I keep waiting?.
While I find myself nearly dehydrated.
There is nothing else I can do anymore.
It's not the end of everything for everyone,
It's just for me.
Bandung,
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Someday I'll realize,
I'll see this through your eyes.
Even you won't be here.
You'll be happy somewhere.
You think I never see your worth.
I always make you hurt,
And make you drop countless tears.
I always mess up these love stories.
I just create heartbreak and miseries.
But somewhere,
You'll find your happiness.
And that will treat your pain.
You even wouldn't cry.
And tears will all run dry.
Someone is gonna love you.
More than the way I loved you.
You'll forget everything about me.
You won't even miss me.
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You unexpectedly broke that glass again.
You're trying to put it back together.
Piece by piece you are looking for,
with very carefully.
But many pieces are lost.
I saw tears in your eyes.
However,
You stop putting it together,
You lost your enthusiasm.
Ah, never mind.
Maybe it won't be like before.
This is how it looks right now,
The broken glass that can no longer be perfect.
Just leave it like this forever.
Or you can throw it away.
Poor the broken glass.
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that does not mean there will be no new stories.
When everything is over,
That means there will be a new story.
When everything is over,
let it go.
If that happens,
Never regret it.
Tomorrow will be better.
New stories are definitely better.
It might be difficult to get rid of those feelings.
But you can replace it with new feelings.
When everything is over,
It's not the end of everything.
When everything is over,
That means you have to start a new story.
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Back in the day, I used to think that loving someone meant you had to 'claim' that person, make them happy in your own style, and dedicate heaps of time to the folks you care about. But now, guess what? I've wised up and realized how darn silly all that is, especially when it seems like the ending is just on repeat.
Not a hint of regret, but every now and then, I wonder why I put in more time for others and somehow managed to forget about numero uno – that's me!
After some pondering, turns out I was wired like that because my happiness was hitched to someone else's wagon. Making them smile was like my own happiness delivery service. But, here's the kicker: my way of dishing out happiness didn't always hit the mark. In fact, sometimes it led to frowns and all-around hurt feelings. Ouch!
So, I decided to pull the plug on that routine. Every single glitch in the matrix made me realize I don't need to play that game anymore. It's either time for a new playbook or just taking a chill pill. Gotta say, chilling sounds tempting. Could be a win-win for both them and yours truly.
And finally, here's the scoop: now I've stumbled upon the joy jackpot without having to lean on others. The magic trick is self-love, plain and simple. Do whatever floats your boat. Ignore the naysayers and party-poopers. Because guess what? You're one-of-a-kind. You're a rare gem.
From now on, it's all about giving myself a big ol' bear hug of love before I even think about sharing the love elsewhere. My happiness takes the driver's seat before I start spreading the cheer.
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This morning, I met my friend named Silvia. She gave me a Chocolate Cheesecake. She said she makes it just for me. I feel so happy when I heard it because she still remembers that I love Chocolate Cheesecake so much.
Silvia is my old friend. I met her when I was a member of an organization. We always together and talking about a new idea for our organization. Sometimes she is so annoying, very annoying. We evermore argue about everything, so we can never get along. But, She is very kind and friendly. We have a lot in common, like we love cooking, playing a musical instrument and others. Sometimes, we talk about our hobby. She often asks me to play a musical instrument like a guitar or a piano and sings a song together.
This morning, We talk to each other, telling about every story that we have experienced in the past. After an hour we talking to each other, I was thinking about why she is so different. She is quieter than before. She is not a talkative person again. She is more often silent and not much talking. I'm so curious about why she is like that. So, I decided to ask her a question why she's so different.
Initially, She does not tell me why. But after I ask her again, she explained anything while she cries. She told me that after her mom passes away, her Boyfriend is decided to broke up with her without telling her why. Can you imagine? What if I or you in her position? How could he like that? Is he have a hearth? I think he's just a jerk. When I hear the story, I feel like I want to angry with this jerk. If he is in front of me, I will punch him many times until he falls. I don't understand why someone can be like that. But it was the saddest story that I heard from her. I feel so sad, even right now.
After she told me all of her stories, we decided to go to another place. I took her to my favorite place. And then, I tried to cheer her up there. After an hour of cheering up. I think she is feeling better. I hope so.
Hey Silvia, If you read this, I want to tell you that you are stronger than you think. Keep your positive vibe. As a friend, I will always help you anytime you need it. Thank you for always believing in me.
Thank you for the delicious Chocolate Cheesecake, It'll be the name of you in my contacts.
Bandung, 3 February 2020
