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This morning, I met my friend named Silvia. She gave me a Chocolate Cheesecake. She said she makes it just for me. I feel so happy when I heard it because she still remembers that I love Chocolate Cheesecake so much.

Silvia is my old friend. I met her when I was a member of an organization. We always together and talking about a new idea for our organization. Sometimes she is so annoying, very annoying. We evermore argue about everything, so we can never get along. But, She is very kind and friendly. We have a lot in common, like we love cooking, playing a musical instrument and others. Sometimes, we talk about our hobby. She often asks me to play a musical instrument like a guitar or a piano and sings a song together.

This morning, We talk to each other, telling about every story that we have experienced in the past. After an hour we talking to each other, I was thinking about why she is so different. She is quieter than before. She is not a talkative person again. She is more often silent and not much talking. I'm so curious about why she is like that. So, I decided to ask her a question why she's so different.

Initially, She does not tell me why. But after I ask her again, she explained anything while she cries. She told me that after her mom passes away, her Boyfriend is decided to broke up with her without telling her why. Can you imagine? What if I or you in her position? How could he like that? Is he have a hearth? I think he's just a jerk. When I hear the story, I feel like I want to angry with this jerk. If he is in front of me, I will punch him many times until he falls. I don't understand why someone can be like that. But it was the saddest story that I heard from her. I feel so sad, even right now.

After she told me all of her stories, we decided to go to another place. I took her to my favorite place. And then, I tried to cheer her up there. After an hour of cheering up. I think she is feeling better. I hope so.

Hey Silvia, If you read this, I want to tell you that you are stronger than you think. Keep your positive vibe. As a friend, I will always help you anytime you need it. Thank you for always believing in me.

Thank you for the delicious Chocolate Cheesecake, It'll be the name of you in my contacts.



Bandung, 3 February 2020

I Love You :)

I love the way you listen to my stories.

I love the way you treat me when I'm feeling sad.

I hope, you know about this feeling.

I really love you.

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Why it's so hard to make you happy,

I've tried so hard to make you happy,

But I still always hurt you,

Make you feel sad,

Make you cry,

And make you feel broken.

Maybe I can only hurt you,

Make you cry and broken,

If I knew that my effort to love you hurting you,

I'd stop loving you and let other people do that instead.

But I kept trying and trying,

Without seeing you getting hurt,

Sorry for being stubborn,

Sorry if you feel sad and broken,

I should have known from long ago.

Sorry.

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When the sun goes down,
And the moon comes up.
When daylight is gone,
and the night has come.
Everything changed.
At first, everything looks bright then it looks dark.

It's like what I feel now.
When everything is so different.
When we feel like no longer considered.
When I feel like you don't care about me.

Why do you always pretend to care about me when you don't?
I always tell you that I don't want you to be like that.
But, why you never listened to me?
I don't want to be a different person.
But you forced me to change because of your attitude.

I've changed...

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Hi, fæder. I just want to write a letter to you. I know that you'll never read this letter. But here is it...

Dear fæder. 

I know you’re not much of a talker, and in a way, I always appreciated that.
Mom was more of the type to tell me what to do and how to do things, but you were always the type to teach by example.

Words may not have been your strong point, but you taught me what I needed to do by showing me how you would do things.
One of the most important lessons I learned from you was the value of keeping one’s word.
Honesty has always been one of the most important virtues to you.

Even though I would lie when I was a child,
you taught me that coming clean and being honest with the ones I love felt ultimately better than hiding my shame with lies.
You also taught me the importance of keeping one’s word and fulfilling promises to others.

Because of you,
I have been careful about who I would give my word to, and thus, I am known as a man of integrity.
Thank you for these lessons you taught me.
I would not be the man I am today without your guidance and love.

Even though I hated you so much because of what you did in the past,
I already considered it a lesson for me.
Today I have become a better person because of you too.
Thanks for everything you have ever given me.


Bandung, 26 November 2019 ~

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I just want to tell you that I am grateful to you.
I am grateful that you have spent so much time listening to my stories.

Thank you.
For making me feel better.
For coming when I am feeling sad.
Beside me when I am feeling lonely.

Thank you for believing me.
sharing everything with me.

Thank you for always finding an excuse to remind me that you care about me.
Thank you for everything that you do and everything that you are.

Last but not least,
Thanks for being my tranquilizer.

I can’t thank you enough for all of your support.
It means the world to me.

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Finally,
I met someone who cares for me,
She always told me good thoughts.
She always reminds me to do good things.
When I am sad,
She always hugs me and told me.
It's ok to be sad,
When the guilt and the shame hangover me.
She always makes me feel better.
Thank god,
Thanks for giving me someone who cares
although, She only exists in my imagination.