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Why it's so hard to make you happy,
I've tried so hard to make you happy,
But I still always hurt you,
Make you feel sad,
Make you cry,
And make you feel broken.
Maybe I can only hurt you,
Make you cry and broken,
If I knew that my effort to love you hurting you,
I'd stop loving you and let other people do that instead.
But I kept trying and trying,
Without seeing you getting hurt,
Sorry for being stubborn,
Sorry if you feel sad and broken,
I should have known from long ago.
Sorry.
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When the sun goes down,
And the moon comes up.
When daylight is gone,
and the night has come.
Everything changed.
At first, everything looks bright then it looks dark.
It's like what I feel now.
When everything is so different.
When we feel like no longer considered.
When I feel like you don't care about me.
Why do you always pretend to care about me when you don't?
I always tell you that I don't want you to be like that.
But, why you never listened to me?
I don't want to be a different person.
But you forced me to change because of your attitude.
I've changed...
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Hi, fæder. I just want to write a letter to you. I know that you'll never read this letter. But here is it...
Dear fæder.
I know you’re not much of a talker, and in a way, I always appreciated that.
Mom was more of the type to tell me what to do and how to do things, but you were always the type to teach by example.
Words may not have been your strong point, but you taught me what I needed to do by showing me how you would do things.
One of the most important lessons I learned from you was the value of keeping one’s word.
Honesty has always been one of the most important virtues to you.
Even though I would lie when I was a child,
you taught me that coming clean and being honest with the ones I love felt ultimately better than hiding my shame with lies.
You also taught me the importance of keeping one’s word and fulfilling promises to others.
Because of you,
I have been careful about who I would give my word to, and thus, I am known as a man of integrity.
Thank you for these lessons you taught me.
I would not be the man I am today without your guidance and love.
Even though I hated you so much because of what you did in the past,
I already considered it a lesson for me.
Today I have become a better person because of you too.
Thanks for everything you have ever given me.
Bandung, 26 November 2019 ~
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I just want to tell you that I am grateful to you.
I am grateful that you have spent so much time listening to my stories.
Thank you.
For making me feel better.
For coming when I am feeling sad.
Beside me when I am feeling lonely.
Thank you for believing me.
sharing everything with me.
Thank you for always finding an excuse to remind me that you care about me.
Thank you for everything that you do and everything that you are.
Last but not least,
Thanks for being my tranquilizer.
I can’t thank you enough for all of your support.
It means the world to me.
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Finally,
I met someone who cares for me,
She always told me good thoughts.
She always reminds me to do good things.
When I am sad,
She always hugs me and told me.
It's ok to be sad,
When the guilt and the shame hangover me.
She always makes me feel better.
Thank god,
Thanks for giving me someone who cares
although, She only exists in my imagination.
A Story From My Childhood
In this short blog, I will share a cherished memory from my childhood that I will always remember. This story will have a sequel. Happy reading!
When I was 5 years old, I had a million dreams, and one of them was to become an Air Force Soldier. I truly wanted to be someone who could protect my country and, most importantly, my family.
My dreams inspired me to learn everything I could. When my father bought me a PS1, I always played action games like Medal Of Honor. My father taught me how to strategize in the game, and I was thrilled to learn from him. Additionally, we played chess together, and even though I often lost, my father patiently taught me the right way to play.
One day, my father made a wooden airplane and gifted it to me. It was the best gift ever, and I remember how happy I was. He knew exactly what I liked. He tied a rope to the top of the tree beside our house and attached it to the fence. He hung the wooden airplane from the rope and then threw it. The wooden airplane seemed to come down from the sky, creating a magical moment that I will always cherish.
I was eager to go to school, just like my friends. I expressed my desire to my mom, but she explained that I needed to wait one more year. After patiently waiting for a year, I finally got the chance to go to school.
To be continued...
Hi Dear, I’m going to introduce myself. My name is Aris Arisandi people call me Aris. Some people call me Idna because I use idnasirasira as my username on my social media.
I was born in Garut, a beautiful city that I always wanted to come back there. But now I live in Bandung, located in the West Java province in Indonesia. It’s the most beautiful city I’ve ever lived in. Coz I never go to another city :).
Writing for me is like a daily habit. But, I never write a blog in English. I studied English since I was 10 Years Old, But I never use English as my primary language. It’s why my English is still bad right now. I really want to learn English. I watched every youtube video without translating it, I read a lot of articles in English. But I never felt that my English is better. But now, I decided to write everything in English and started on this Blog. Sorry If my English is bad :). Please give me your advice or opinion about my English. I’ll write another blog in English to improve my writing skills In English.
Have a wonderful day!!!
